Some days I feel like I’m standing still and everything around me is moving so fast that it’s all a blur. Sometimes it is so hard to keep up. I have so much on my mind, I need a file cabinet in my brain to keep everything in order! I’m not sure where I’m going with my business. I know there are things I need to change. There are tons of things I’m doing wrong. But this is a learning experience. But it’s becoming a very stressful learning experience! I’m in the middle of making some serious changes. In the long run, they will pay off. But for right now, it’s a mess. If anyone is reading this and knows about website coding and html and all that jazz, PLEASE EMAIL ME. Before I have a melt down. I just ordered a custom logo design. I’ve wanted to do it for a long time, but I kept listening to people telling me I didn’t need it. But I followed my gut and just purchased it. It was a big purchase, but I trust my designer and I know it will be fabulous. I think I have “creative ADD”. I get like 50 ideas at once and they all kinda run together. I need to take some time to really sit down and hash out what’s going on in my brain. I bet there’s some really killer ideas in there, I just can’t find them right now! I try to set aside time for this, but for some reason, something always comes up! I have so many people question what “BLOCKED” means on my calendar. It’s really hard to say “I don’t work 7 days a week, and I NEED DAYS OFF!”. It’s hard to say that because some times I feel like I don’t deserve a “day off”. I feel like I should be working. My office is approximatly 15 feet from my couch, and if I’m sitting there watching Fresh Prince re-runs, I just keep thinking….I should be at my desk. This business is my baby and it’s the only baby I have right now. I want everything to be perfect and I’m SOOOO impatient! I feel like I post so many blog dumps about how “stressed” I am, how my job is so hard, and BLAH BLAH BLAH. I know ya’ll are tired of hearing it, because I’m TIRED OF TYPING IT! Everyone’s job is stressful, duh! But I think it’s time I admit I need help. I need to spend some money on some design elements, because I’m a photographer, not a designer. I need tax help and bookkeeping. I want to be able to do it all but I can’t. At least not anymore!
Anyways, thanks for listening to yet another BLAH BLAH BLAH blog. I’ll be posting Holly and Clint’s winery wedding next. It was fabulous and I had so much fun. But it’s not ready just yet.
All of my friends seem to be having babies and starting their families. I’m so flippin happy for them! But I can’t help but ask God when my turn is. I try to patiently wait…but again…I’m IMPATIENT. It’s hard to explain to people what I’m going through and the feelings I have. I can’t wait to have a family with my husband. I wish I could have given my dad a grandchild before he left….but I know he’s going to get to meet my baby before I even do! At least I have beautiful friends to photograph
Oh and just to add….I shoot mostly any kind of photography. But unfortunately I DON’T shoot maternity. The girl photo’ed above is one of my best friends, so I want to document everything for her! I agree that pregnant women are so beautiful and I know it’s kinda weird for me to not shoot them. BUUUUT I’m just not comfortable with those types of sessions. It’s harder to pose a pregnant woman and alot more difficult to be creative. So I just had to post this disclaimer. Because even though every now and then you are gonna see a hot mamma on my blog…..I still don’t shoot maternity But I do know some fabulous photographers that do, so if you need a referral, just email me!
Here’s a few more
Baby Gabe will be here MONDAY! We are so excited
These pics make me want to run off to get married in Vegas (in the milder April or May weather though – lol!) These are so awesome Jessica! You never cease to amaze me with your talent.
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