Well, even though tomorrow’s wedding isn’t the FIRST of 2010, it does mark the begininng of a busy few months for me! The next break I’ll have is July. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love weddings so much. It’s so hard to believe that 2 years ago I was working behind a desk, swearing that I would never make photography a career. What was I thinking! I’m so glad my friends and family pushed me and helped me see that this is what I was meant to do. I’m sad it took me so long to realize it and now my dad didn’t get a chance to see my business thriving. And to see how happy I am. Man I can imagine the look on his face. The first time I showed him an album I created, he said “wow, Jess, you are really good”. I just smiled cause he didn’t realize that I learned everything from him! I’m only good cause he helped me. Every time I do something new in my business I really want to have his opinion. There’s alot going on right now that I have questions about. Two days ago I sat at my desk staring at my big beautiful new mac. I wanted to quit. Turn it all in and go back to my desk job. I just had stacks of papers all around and no idea what to do. It’s hard to explain because I love photography so much. But the whole running your own business….man you just can’t learn that in college. Sure I graduated in business management. But I still don’t feel like I know what I’m doing. I have no idea if I’m doing ANYTHING right anymore. Of course, I’m not going to quit. That was a passing feeling. I know other photographers have been where I am right now. But tomorrow’s wedding is going to throw my right back into the part that I love. And I can’t wait!!! If you’re friends with me on facebook, I’m sorry you have to see my mood change so much! I’m an open book. If I feel angry, upset, sad, disappiointed or even happy and overjoyed, you will know it. That’s me, take it or leave it! And for those of you who always leave encouraging words for me, even though you’re probably thinking “get over it already!!”, THANK YOU. I appreciate it more then I could ever say!!!
See you guys on Monday
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